FIVE!!

Five years!!  Can you believe it has been five years since we let the world know about the journey we were taking to become family?  Five years ago we started this blog as a way to share with friends and family about our adoption process and hopefully to share more about our life as a family of three.  I had no idea when I started this blog that we would be matched by the end of the month.

It seems like an eternity ago that we were at the beginning of our journey where your heart jumps every time the phone rings.  Every day was filled with prayers for our future child and his/her birth mom.  Every day was just another lesson in patience. (For the record, I am STILL learning how to be patient.) Every day we would waiver between hope and despair.

If someone had told me five years ago when I started this blog that I would be the proud momma of TWO  and that we would end up taking a twenty something year old under our wing, I would have never believed it!  Five years ago I was in a pretty dark place.  Desperately clinging to any glimmer of hope I could find.

When others found out that we were struggling on our path to parenthood, they shared their stories and struggles with us.  Many of which were going through this at the same time as we were.  Since then, every single one of them has become a parent. (And sometimes more than once!) Pretty awesome when you think about it.

When we started writing, we intended to utilize this blog to share with friends and family.  It has become so much more.  We have met people that we would have NEVER encountered otherwise.  I am so glad that we have a platform to share our journey and to share our family.  Thanks for joining our journey!

Before him

Before him I didn't know how much I could love someone.  I didn't know that my heart would jump with joy and break in half and that I would be able to feel both all the way down to my toes!  I didn't know that I could love someone so much that I would think about them constantly and worry about their every move and every breath.

Even as an infant, he would put his hand on mine like this.  LOVE!!

Before him I didn't know that I would agonize over decisions that affect his little world like preschool, daycare, kindergarden....oh my!  That sends me into panic mode just thinking about it!

Before him I didn't know how much fun it would be to play with cars or trucks or anything "boy".  I didn't know that I would laugh at gross boy words like "poop" simply because his laugh was infectious.  (It is not ladylike to talk about bodily functions...but for him I will make an exception.)

Before him I liked to have my space.  Now I will take every hug, snuggle and cuddle that I can get!  Even if these means that he climbs in my bed every night or at some unknown early morning hour and I end up with his feet on me!

Before him I didn't realize how important every tradition was and how I would want to start a bajillion new traditions for our family and how I would want to make every new experience special.

Before him I had no idea what the world of little boys was like.  In a house of girls, everything was pretty and pink when I was growing up.  My world was full of blue when he came around.

Before him I had no idea how much I would love having my little man with me!  I had no idea how much fun little boys were.  I had no idea that he truly would be a dream come true!